On being a mom of two

Shortly after I had our first son, I was chatting with a friend of mine. I was feeling overwhelmed. Exhausted. Nervous. And I made a comment about how hard it was. She responded by saying how she'd love to only have one - one was a cakewalk! I walked away from that conversation feeling so defeated. And I promised myself whether someone had no children or one child or 100 children, I would never say something like that to her. Because let's be real - life is just hard sometimes, no matter what place you're in. 

So how am I feeling now that I'm a mom of two? Pretty much as overwhelmed and scared as I was as a new mom of one. And like there aren't enough hours in the day to do all the things. The quality time with both children and each child separately. Running a home business. Keeping up with the house. Being more than ships passing in the night with my husband. Trying to reach out to friends. Working out (ugggggh, I MISS working out!). 

Mostly, I'm just tired. 

But, we're doing well. I'm seeing our family change in some amazing ways. Harrison sort of came into the picture seamlessly, and it's hard to remember what life was like before he was here. While big brother certainly has moments of wishing the baby wasn't taking attention from him, he really does love his little bro so much. He's constantly asking about him, wanting to be near him, and showing him how to do things (most recently, rolling from back to belly!)! 

My husband is quite literally super dad. He gets home and manages to play with both of the boys (and sometimes put them to bed at the exact same moment - a feat in and of itself!). I cannot wait to see them all grow closer - I have a feeling these boys will be inseparable as time goes on. I also foresee a lot of projects in our future. 

And I'm, honestly, kind of surprised at how I feel. I think I was an okay mom of one. But for some reason, I feel like a really good mom of two. I've been forced to slow down during the day - forget all the minute details like cleaning up dishes and trying to knock out my to-do list - and focus on the boys. To be fair, once the boys go to bed, it's go time, and I try to knock out ALL THE THINGS before I pass out at bedtime, but, the mom wins that I've been having seem to compensate that. 

So mostly we're just trying to just navigate this new fangled family we have. And it's really pretty great.