The training wall

I don't know about you, but life has gotten out of control. It's not just the holidays. It's the shopping I've yet to complete. And the grading my students keep asking about. And the cleaning I should be doing. And the decorating I haven't done. And the groceries I haven't bought in weeks. And the new Jazzercise set sitting in shrink wrap three days after I got it. And the Christmas cards I haven't done yet. And the freelance article I need to work on finding landscapers for. And the fact that I'm out of town every weekend this month. 

And I don't want to do any of it. 

I also don't want to run.

Tonight is the only night in the foreseeable future (and the recent past) that I haven't had a meeting, a class to teach, a party to go to, or an out of town outing.  

Maybe it's the weather. The constant rain isn't ideal for running.

Or maybe it's the fact that my jobs have been keeping me busy. Between school, Jazzercise, and freelancing, there just haven't been enough hours in the day to do much of anything else. 

Maybe it's the fact that the race is still more than two months away. Will missing a run now and then really be a detriment to my training? Perhaps, but I think not. 

Or maybe it's the fact that my couch is so much more appealing lately. Okay, and cookies. Okay, cookies on the couch. 

I think, maybe, I am hitting a wall. The initial excitement has worn off, and the race seems too far off to really be excited about it yet. The stress from the holidays and work and life may have caught up to me. I'm worried about getting everything done. I'm worried about the people in my life. Generally speaking, I'm worried. 

I think I used to stave off this worrying with a run. But today, I don't even seem to want to do that. I have an elliptical sitting in my basement, begging me to use it as a substitute for running right now. Yet, I'm pretty sure the rest of the night will be spent on the couch reading O Magazine, not working out for the equivalent of the five miles I was supposed to run yesterday. Or today. The busy weeks are kicking my tail end. 

Let's hope this wall is more conquerable by Saturday. I really want to get in some good runs before the snow is here. 

But the couch is so darn comfortable.